Ahhhhhhhhhhh.... estoy que me lleva la recontra------TUUUUUUUUUUUT----- yeeeeah. I can't stand this anymore. I have to spit it out right now. I feel like a bomb about to explode!! Dammit!! You know meeee, you know that I used to express my fanatism making fansites like Riley-Smith.net or Dean&Jo.com, but this time... idk, I could't express it in any way. Oh yeah, I'm talking about Twilight. Sorry folks.

First of all, I'll start with this: why in the hell I started reading Twilight? Easy. Mila (gatito_urbano) was so hooked to these books she finally convinced me to read them. Aiwe (frenchkled) supported the idea in a way. They were discussing about who was better, Edward Cullen or Jacob Black? And I was like huh... who the hell are them? Then everything started.

I downloaded Twilight ebook in spanish and started to read the first chapter. At the end I prefered to print out the whole book. There were around 50 pages or something I really don't remember. Arial 6, 3 columns, legal size paper, without double breaks.

Ok, I finished reading it and OMG... I was sooo clinged to Edward in a way I'd never imagine!! I was shocked. I couldn't imagine myself falling in love with some fictional character, not even Severus Snape or Draco Malfoy, Son Goten or Vegeta. Not even Dean Winchester (though I think I fell in love with this character because of Jensen Ackles, or maybe not. I DID hate him in Smallville, but anyway that's another story.) Maybe I needed romance in my life, maybe I needed affection in that moment, hahaha I was in finals!!!!!! Of course I did want affection and love and everything snifff. Anyway, the thing is I fell in love with Edward, for sure. Then I fell in love with Gaspard...... haha but that was because of the fandom. Stupid fandom, sometimes I hate it, sometimes I don't. Oh, Edward. His matureness makes me feel so good all the time...the way he speaks. Yes I know he's a Gary Stu or a Romeo, but I liked him anyways. Maybe I'm corny, so what? I like perfection (like Riley Smith hahaha ok, no) idk, leave me alone.

Anyway, when I started reading Twilight, Gaspard Ulliel was already picked up by almost 80% of the fandom to be Edward so I pictured him all the time. Kristen Stewart wasn't cast by the time but I pictured Bella with a different face because I didn't like Emily Browning until I started reading New Moon.

Oh, New Moon. Oh, Jacob...