is the question that's been running through my mind lately.

what if it's me
what if it is
what if it's not
what if it's true
what if what if what if

well,

what if i told you to stop pretending like you understand my situation and like you've been through what i'm going through?
what if i told you to shut up and quit nodding your head like you care and start showing some true emotion, because you aren't fooling anyone?
what if i told you you're a waste of my time?
what if i told you that you were a big hypocrite, the biggest one i've ever met in my life actually, and that i have no intentions of ever forgiving you?
what if i told you that they don't give two living shits about you and they only like you for your physical assets?
what if i told you that it's nasty and disgusting to be proud about it and that they use you like something to take up space?
what if i told you they're using you like how they use everyone, to bring me "karma" and next year will definitely not be a good year?
what if i told you i don't give a shit about you anymore, and you piss me off?
what if i told you that you don't know me like that, that you should stop pretending because i am not your friend anymore?

but,

what if i told you i loved you, and maybe even still do after everything?
what if i told you that i am truly trying, putting my all and my heart on the line because i want to?
what if i told you that you don't know how much i care and that i don't really care if you do, all i need to know is that you know?




... also, i'm feeling like an empath lately.
like a jasper hale?
yeah ....
it's getting to me.

The Devil waits for Dean.

SUPERNATURAL: THE COMPLETE THIRD SEASON

The yellow-eyed demon is vanquished, but at a terrible price. The battle that brought him down released hundreds of demons from Hell into an unsuspecting world. And it cost Sam his life. But a grief-stricken Dean made a deal with the Crossroad Demon - his soul for Sam's resurrection. Now Dean has just one year to live. One year to fight the unholy, the twisted, the ghoulish. One year to say farewell to Sam. And one year for Sam to search desperately for some way to save his brother. Mind-bending adventure awaits as the Winchester brothers continue their astonishing odyssey into the supernatural…and their personal odyssey into destiny.

What is it with guys and football?! Honestly, I have a father and a brother obsessed with it, and I've watched them and studied them my whole life, and I still don't get it. A bunch of other guys running around chasing a stupid ball. Bleh.

So, I obviously don't know about current games, but apparently something huge was happening today at 2 pm?  [Ok, my brother just told me, a game from the Champions League... ok, cool]. C, Guillaume and other boy whose name I don't remember right now were freaking out, haha, because we can't leave until 2 pm (actually, I can leave whenever the hell I want, LOL, but they don't XD). This boy whose name I don't recall arrived at 1:35 pm telling C "let's go now!", and C was like "hum, we can't leave yet!". And then all three of them were chatting right next to me like a group of annoying, over-excited, noisy girls. Men, they're so lame cute XD.